#don't worry im not dead

[tanuki-voice]

Okay, uh, update. I didn't mean to drop off the face of the earth, but I've just been going through a lot lately.

To make a long story short: I told y'all a while ago I transitioned, and for the most part it's been great! I'm a little over 8 months in, seeing good progress.

However, it's been a really draining process. Both emotionally and financially. I have to pay for all the blood work out of pocket because the one place I could get hormones didn't take my insurance, as well as all the fees for consultation and the meds themselves. Recently I finally got around to changing my name legally, that was also really expensive. I haven't had a job because I've mostly been in school (I'm working on my bachelor's), so it's just been a bit of a juggling act.

On top of that, I've been dealing with the fact that most of my family, and some of my friends, don't really accept me, they made it clear after I came out that they don't like me being trans. That's been a big emotional rollercoaster, and dear gods am I tired of someone telling me that they "love me and only want the best for me" then proceed to invalidate my existence in the same breath. That combined with the fact that my family has the money for my tuition and rent and stuff makes this a really difficult balancing act.

I've been really busy, partially working on classes, but mostly trying to deal with this whole conundrum I've put myself into in the process of trying to work towards my best self. I just wasn't in the greatest headspace to run the blog. (I got so stressed I lost like 20 pounds.) I still don't really think I am. It'll probably be a bit before I can find that happy medium again and get back to writing. For now, I really appreciate your folks' patience.

[betelgeuse-et-bellatrix]

First week of school; I have just finished my homework; I am way past midnight.

[snow-or-spoot]

Kyle, sobbing: STOP HAVING SO MANY BABIES

Cartman, covered in a sea of stuffed animals: NEVER

[diaryofkyrie]

Miss Kyrie I have a question. When did you started to train in fighting? And how was it at the beginning?

Well! I was actually trained from the moment Credo joined the Order! But it wasn't really much, mostly just basic self defense and how to use a sword. It wasn't really until after the Fortuna Incident that I began training really hard. I guess raising a large number of kids and paranoia really works as a good motivation! I now mostly train with Nero, sparing from time to time but he always let's me win which is quite a bummer since I always want a good even fight.